Girl Trouble

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20:40 october 24, 2007
while waiting for the water to heat up for a nice evening bath
now playing: tracks from eraserheads: live and acoustic

i am full of angst and this will make no sense

i just finished reading the alan navarra book, girl trouble, which i just bought earlier at fully booked. i saw the book yesterday and took a quick peek of what could the 'explicit content' be, as the parental guidance says. haha. (the book has this explicit content warning just like those in cds which i found amazing because its the first time i saw warnings like that in a book). anyways (before this entry turn to a book review), the synopsis really doesn't tell anything about the book, i think what made me bought the book (from the kickback of my tuition fee) was the explicit content sign. the book was good. period.

what happened today:
i was so hyped when i woke up today at the thought of last night: went to a san juan to watch Nami repair a common friend's pc while watching youtube clips in between. i arrived home at around 12.30 am. nervous at the thought of my mother locking me out of the house. but oh well, i wasn't locked out of the house, thank god.

back to waking up. i woke up today past 6 am, preparing myself to finish the process of enrollment. me and friends had this agreement that whoever arrives late (usapan eh 8 am asa skul na dapat), will treat the barkada something like food, duh. nweis, i was 30 minutes late so as agreed, i bought rc for the gang came lunch.


waiting at school. the enrolling advisers came soooo late. they arrived at school like 10 am and started processing R0s around 1030. errr. so to end the story (hindi kasi yun ang dahilan ng angst ko ngayon), may regi na ako at enrolled na ko.

eop please. crap.

the reason for the angst.
i was so cheery that something might actually make me happy today. something. something that i always liked. i always liked this feeling of forgetting the world outside and having this feeling that nothing else matters. this feeling that the long lost poets invented, for the theatricality of this thing called love... which they ingeniusly inject in their literature. literature that make you believe that eternal bliss or euphoria actually exist, that it can happen to the most common people--if you just believe.

press play. chasing cars ng snow patrol sa background para sa mas madrama na effect.
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would you lie with me and just forget the world?

anyways. the hype, of course, as this always happen to me, everytime... everytime i expect of something... died down. fck whoever invented the word expectation and disappointment. i hate you dictionary, for defining those sad sad words. those words. which i dare not repeat as i type. which i dare not read again as i type... how they come together, how they complement each other in my own little world.

then back to girl trouble. the book.
the book is full of angst. thank you girl trouble for inspiring this senseless blog entry. i would come by the seawall sometime and say my wish too, and maybe, my bottle will break, and my wish will come true. and i'll believe that miracles do happen...

that someday the word expectation will come with the word fulfillment, leaving disappointment behind. drowning itself in the sea of angst.

tamang kanta pa. sino sa atin. eraserheads.

postscripts.
offline note itech. kumukulo na ang tubig. sana maramdaman mo din ang angst ko. harhar. joke lang. :) sige lang, inom pa. harhar. salamat sa pagdamay sa sapot ko.

nakakainis pa. it took me like 5 hours to finish the book! 5 hours. sobrang bilis. tapos natulog pa ako dun sa 5 hours na yun. sobrang bilis. time flies fast when you're having fun. balik na naman ako sa pagtatapos ng a map of the world.

kakatapos ko lang maligo. hassle pag sobrang mainit ang tubig. wala tuloy akong narealize habang naliligo.

feeling ko sabog eraserheads nung nirecord ang album na to. L&A


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